its starting to get hot out side , and my frustrations are starting to peak .

we did get to move into the house after all . i am very disappointed . why? well , the landlord was dishonest .he waited until we paid the 30$ application fee to tell us the house was up for sale and people will be coming into the house when ever he wanted without warning to look at the place , and the longest lease he wanted would be 6 months and he wouldnt renew , so we would have been stuck trying to move out in the dead of winter , in the rocky mountains , in about 4 feet of snow .

fuck that.
not only is that intrusive onto my personal space (me and my husband have a lot of sex , and i dont wear clothes in my home ) but its stupid . i am not going to agree to those terms . we have been looking for a place to rent since October , and i should have learned to not get my hopes up - there are so many unreasonable landlords out there. (like the one we are dealing with now..) i cant move halfway across the state just to move again in a few short months . i am upset. looking for a new place is upsetting . rent is too high .

i am just fucking disappointed and frustrated about a lot of things . like aisha's "friend" who "fixed" my computer . my computer will never work again , and i have to use nic's computer . i lost all my music , photos , the book i was writting , home movies , etc , etc.. i let him use my computer to check his email and such - not run a bunch of malware programs causing a critical error .. ass.

i use my mp3 player as a way to cope with schizophrenia , drowning out the voices . i cannot put new music on there now , and since my player is sooo old its starting to malfunction and i am sure its gonna die soon .  i really hope it lasts .

i had to take my dog to the vet , treat her , and quarantine her for kennel cough , because hippies are stupid and neglect there dogs . if your dog is sick and contagious - fucking take care of it , instead of letting it run around without a leash . ASS

 i am not longer getting the full amount of SSI , because of an error on there part - twice. i am not even getting enough to cover the rent here . the rent that the fucking ass landlord just increased .

the basement here flooded and mold is growing in the walls .

everything sucks . i am a good person . i use to be a very happy person , until life attacked with full force and i was forced to deal with BS day in and day out .
 life is stupid .

my dishwasher has never worked and we cant even open it because its disgusting . our AC doesnt work . our car is starting to act weird . our oven doesnt stop beeping and catching on fire . i just want to be some where peaceful ,away from everything and everyone .